You don’t know my story,
You don’t know my song.
If you only knew my song….
I had a conversation with a very good, dear friend of mine, who gave me practical advice about my new venture into what I call–“adulthood.”
Because of my present circumstances, this process of gaining the independence, and freedom….and money…has been difficult. But, instead of receiving the advice with patient understanding…..
I got aggravated.
How would she know how to get money to go back to school? Or to do anything?
If she had a problem, she could just ask ol’ mom and dad to help her.
Me? I didn’t have that option. My parents…well…have done the best they could.
“Don’t think your situation is worse that any other person’s either.”
Hm! Easy for you to say. I have to wait for my ride to show up, in order to get to work everyday–and that’s if they come early.
Easy for you to say—I have to use my part time paycheck to pay for everything other than for myself.
Easy for you to say– you have a car, someone else bought for you, and the freedom to use it.
Easy for you to say–you’re almost done with school…
Easy for you to say…
If she only knew what I was going through……
I felt stuck. I had all these dreams, expectations, and plans for my life…and it seemed as if nothing was working.
I was stuck between two places:
Either I receive the advice, no matter how naive or callous it may have seemed, or reject it, resigning to the partial truth that she had no idea what was going on, nor would she ever.
I stayed stuck. For about a day. Asking God to help me make sense of this. I was not willing to go back to my prideful ways–nor was I willing to allow someone assume I was not trying despite my circumstances.
I was angry, tempted to be offended, and frustrated. I was so confused. How can I go forward if I am not able to process this anger I feel inside?
Not concerning my friend…but concerning my life.
Have you ever felt that way? Like this was not supposed to be your life? I am grateful now, more grateful, with the challenges I face. However, it is hard to reconcile the differences between what you have dreamed for your life and what it is now.
And even the best intentions of family, friends, even strangers can seem futile…almost cruel at times.
The truth is:
Every person in this world goes through hard times. And even though it can be challenging to navigate your way out of this season, don’t think it is the end.
God has given you the opportunity to live and learn, even in this season.
You can even learn from people. Whoever God places around you is not a coincidence.
You may think that they do not understand.
At times, this is true…but sometimes, their advice is a product of their own pain and suffering, which may be just what you need to leave the pain and disappointment behind and become all God has created you to be.
What that pain looks like may be different than your own, but since it is their pain, their struggle, it does not mean it is less than or worse than your own.
God gives you and I guidance through the people. But His guidance can only be received if we can take the step of faith to believe in Him.
“And without faith it is impossible to please God, because anyone who comes to him must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who earnestly seek him.” (Hebrews 11:6).
God can not direct a person who is not going to give Him the respect and honor that He deserves by at least believing in Him.
I think part of this is to understand how much God loves us and how He really wants to reveal the great plans He has for our lives. But we can’t access that glorious plan, without acknowledging that He is real, and that He loves us so much. Jesus Christ died in our place so we can have life with Him. (Read John 3:16). We can now enter into a new relationship with Him by accepting Jesus as our Lord and Savior.
I have learned that I have to put down my pride and give God the opportunity to encourage me, push me forward, and motivate me through the advice of good people.
Look at this way: at least you have people around you who are willing to give you advice. Even if they do not know or understand your circumstances.
Don’t let your heart be hardened by the ignorance of others.
Or your own. Let God reveal to you the truth about where you are now, by taking time to look at your motives, your reasoning for accepting or rejecting things people say to you and how you respond.
Check your heart.
Is it based on your own insecurities? Your own pain? Your expectations of success?
It is hard to face these places–I know. It’s even difficult to admit that you need to.
Not doing so can affect our ability to receive the God’s good direction and God’s blessings.
So, I may not know your story.
And you may not know my song.
Just know, that God does–and He can help you.
Only if you let Him.
He knows our story.
He knows our song.
He is the only one who can cause the human song, of suffering, inconvenience, shame, past mistakes, and failures, to turn into a glorious symphony of redemption and praise, when we decide to look to Him–and His Son, Jesus--for hope.
If you want to accept Jesus as Your Lord and Savior, I encourage you to pray this prayer out of your mouth and believe it in your heart. He can lead you out of this wilderness into the destiny He has prepared for you before the beginning of time. He loves you.
I ask you to forgive me for all my sins.
I believe you died for me on the cross and carried my sins to the grave. I believe you are alive now. Come into my heart Lord Jesus, I accept you as my Lord and Personal Savior. Right now, I am made new. Old things have passed away, all things have become new. I ask for you to lead me and guide me into the plan you have for my life. Thank you God for hearing me and answering me now. God, thank you for loving me so much. Amen.
Let me know if you have prayed this prayer for the very first time…or the first time in awhile. 🙂 I will be sure to give you the encouragement you need to live the new life God has given you. If you have any questions, you are free to send me an email. I will help you as best as I can.
God bless you dear ones.
God loves you so much,
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