I wrote this awhile back when I was still writing on.
It was not an easy place for my heart to be in.
But He led me here again so I,
Can learn from this too.
We were just talking about this. My close friend and I, she told me about the lingering hurts of cutting words from a stranger into her life. She kept walking on, after some encouragement. And we realized that these words can be detremential..but at the end of the day are fleeting. Having no merit or weight about who we really are and what we have done.
I was feeling some sorts about my life.
And I scrolled through some work just to see what I could do.
Looking at or even at least thinking about story ideas makes me feel better.
Then God led someplace else.
He wanted me to see how far I have come.
I heistated but I began to read.
He is always right.
And here I am sharing what I wrote.
And here I am again,
Receiving encouragement from what I never trusted as good work.
The truth is: I didn’t believe there were be words worth of value in here, the old document with words written from the earth of my heart in the past.
But it is. He led me back to this to show me how far I have come.
Here are some of this things God was speaking to me about during this time.
Here are words God is speaking to me now.
And I want you to read it.
And be touched and inspired by the words He spoke to me during this season of growth and learning.
Two years ago.
July 16th, 2015
A Time for Everything: He Looks to See What You Will Do
My self-esteem, I thought it was pretty high…but in particular with this week, I have noticed there were many things that were sent my way (from the enemy I am sure) that have challenged my heart’s ideas about who I am. My worthiness, my confidence and etc.
And I know many can relate to this. Maybe even little things, low blows from parents, siblings, even close friends. Snuffs from people you thought you were cool with. Even benign things such as misunderstandings, rushed conversations…failed social encounters. Which you know really don’t mean anything compared to the overall scheme of life, but those things just seem to bug you. You consider your thoughts and actions.
Your words are lost…..scriptures escape your mind…you lack focus…you keep rehearsing in your mind: “Maybe I could have done this…or this….or I could have said this…maybe I should have let her know, or did I do something wrong? Why are they mad at me? Was I to blame….Am I the problem? I am the problem….” We give room for the enemy to amplify the situation.
You get sad, forlorn. You stop your usual functions over something as little as a rude, or harsh word. A cold shoulder. Unfair treatment, an offence.
But good Lord. Aren’t I glad the Lord prepared me for this week!
God told me before this week began:
1. Don’t beat yourself up. it is a completely human thing to do, but it is also a very prideful thing to do. Why? You keep focusing on yourself. He cares about you, loves you, and still thinks the best of you. You are His child you know?
2. If people offend you, forgive them. God has a good way of getting people back for all the wrong they have caused you…trust me….believe me.
3. Protect and guard your heart with all diligence. For out of it come the issues of life. [paraphrased, Proverbs 4:25] Not only what comes into you. But what comes out of you. Speak with great clarity, but also remember to keep sound wisdom and discretion, which are the fruit of the Holy Spirit coming from your lips. Never speak without checking your spirit or thinking over it with God.
Protect your heart from being engaged in the issues, and cares of this world. You must understand. Disagreements, arguments with people, slander, hurtful words thrown your way, and mediating on that is still a care of this world. Why? Because most harmful arguments happen in the flesh. Gosh, I just learned this today. You can not be engaged in the affairs of this life, because you go into battle, only to please the one who has called you to be a soldier. Jesus Christ our Lord. And I know you would want Him to return with you musing about a dumb argument you have had with your sister upteen billion times! I think not! SO, please, be careful to not take these words to your heart. Pray to God, ask God to guard your heart and mind with peace [Philippians 4:7].
4. It is okay, it is more than okay, to be yourself. Why? Because you are free.
How? God bought you with a heavy price for you to be.
And what price was that?
The blood of His only Son–Yeshua. But we all know Him as, Jesus, the Son of the Living God.
I know it may seem hard to consider or imagine. But just think of it this way:
A. This life is waaay too short for you to be carried away in banal arguments.
B. We are all accountable to God for what we do, every little thing. Now, that can be a little scary to some. But it shouldn’t. If you are walking with God, there is nothing to fear! God is near and will help you. You may not like it, flesh wise, but it will be for your good!
C. In everything, at least this helps me, I want Jesus to be proud of the way I acted and my response to the circumstances of life.
Get stronger, and work on this. Because when we do, God will work it for our good. Our character will be stronger, and therefore, can support the greater power/anointing God will give us.
I love you all and may God bless you.
Remember/Meditate on Philippians 4:7. Ask God to rule your heart and mind with peace. And ask Him for strength and even courage to do the right thing before Him always.