Love Yourself

“And you shall love the Lord your God with all your heart, and with all your soul, and with all your mind, and with all your strength.’ 31 The second is this, ‘You shall love your neighbor as yourself.’ There is no other commandment greater than these.”–Mark 12:30-31

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I gave up myself.


For the benefit of others.

And sometimes for the sake of pleasing others, I would sacrifice all I had to help them.

I would be so dried up.

Literally. Physically, mentally, emotionally.

My body began to suffer from anxiety and because I was so willing to be affirmed and loved, I took all forms of maltreatment, negativity, and abuse from those I loved and cared for.

I did not understand why I was so depressed.

I could not understand why I was being mistreated. Why I was being bullied, and why people who I thought had my best interest at heart were constantly reminding me of my mistakes, constantly reminding me of my failures, of who I used to be, and how stupid I looked.

I didn’t understand why I would give so much love, support, and affirmation to people but I would not get anything in return.

The truth is…

I did not love myself.

That is why I allowed people to walk all over me.

At first, it was due to feelings of inadequacy, and the desire to be affirmed, belong, or accepted in my family.

Then, when I got older, I deceived myself into believing that it was God’s Will to allow others to mistreat me over and over again.

I learned I was wrong.

As believers, I think we tend to take on that mentality. That we are to constantly put ourselves in positions where we will be used.

I know, that we all have reasons for why we do what we do.

Some of us have an unhealthy desire to be needed.

Some of us want approval from people.

And then, there are our hearts. Special, branded with God’s Word.

Sensitive to the spirit of truth, and plentiful with mercy.

For me, not only am I a lover of God but my personality, my heart, is filled with a gift of a mercy and compassion.

Tenderheart’s. Gullible and naive some call us–but God has placed His own heart in ours.

Even with a pure heart of good intentions, I would still find myself being misunderstood, belittled, used or even laughed at. I was at a loss. and I found myself angry, bitter, resentful, distant, and untrustworthy of people. My heart became stale. I did not extend God’s love and actually restrained being kind, generous, or open with people.

It’s a dangerous place to be in the offense.

It was not until God spoke to me through His scriptures of my hard heart, and offense toward people. These things were hindering my growth and my relationship with Him.

It is God’s desire for us to forgive, repent, to love and do good to those who hate us and despitefully use us (Matthew 5:44).

But God does not call us to be fools.

You can love someone from a distance.

You can respect their wishes to not support you.

You can allow them to sit in self-pity, ad their own self -hatred.

And move on.

You do not need to beg for love, beg for affection, beg for their approval or their help.

If you find that they are not helping you enter God’s best for your life, then respectfully part ways with them.

You are hindering your growth in the Lord when you stay in negative, or toxic relationships.

Even if your desire is to bless people–which is our calling as Christians–you still must remember a fundamental law, which is three in one.

“And you shall love the Lord your God with all your heart, and with all your soul, and with all your mind, and with all your strength.’ 31 The second is this, ‘You shall love your neighbor as yourself.’ There is no other commandment greater than these” –Mark 12:29-31



And then– OTHERS.

In this order alone!

Because if you don’t love God, you will never learn or know how to love.

True love was given to us when God, the Father sent His Son to shed His Blood for you and I.

“But God demonstrates His own love toward us, in that while we were yet sinners, Christ died for us.”–Romans 5:8

You are that valuable to God.

And if you do not value, treasure, or esteem the worth God has on you–

How can you appreciate the value of another?

How can you love your neighbor, if you do not love yourself?


How can I love my neighbor,

My family, my boss, my friends, my landlord, my church,

if I do not love myself?

This is something God hit me with recently. I learned how to push myself to the back burner.

Even in the name of The Lord.

I thought I was serving Him–when in reality, I was serving man.

And even when I served people with good intentions, their heart was unable to receive the goodness God had placed within me. Nor was I in a position to do that emotionally.

Even then, I had to learn how to appropriate the blessings God gives me. I do not need to give everything away–especially to the wrong person. Now, I must use wisdom when it comes to interacting with people, especially if I giving up time, money, or love for them.

I have a choice to who I let in.

I have a choice of who can speak into my life.

Before I did not think I had a choice.

Or deserved a choice.

I know better now.

I don’t need to be trampled all over. I do not have to be used up and broken.

I do not have to be talked down to. I do not have to be mistreated any longer.

I deserve love. Appreciation. And honor.

So do you.

And The Lord will place people in your life or already have placed people around you to affirm what the Lord is doing in you. People who will speak life, love and pour gentle affection and honor into you. You don’t have time anymore to let people speak into your life that do not have your best interest in mind. You don’t need to settle for a relationship that is dragging you down. You have a right to claim your peace and move away from situations, people, even loved ones, who do not give respect for the gift inside of you.

The Lord has set a time for everything. I do believe that during this time, we will learn how to take care of what God has entrusted to us. And I believe that includes all of us: body, soul, and spirit.

This is the time God will reveal how to love. If we learn how to love, and His love for us, we can then learn how to love ourselves.

As He reveals the depths of His Love to you and me, then I can give endlessly to those around me.

As you spend time with Him, learning more about Who He is–He enlightens our eyes to see His Glory, Power, Might, Light and Overwhelming, Overflowing, supernatural love.

So you and I will not settle for anything.

We are worthy of love.

And the good this I don’t have to prove it.

Jesus revealed my worth by dying on the cross for me.

Again, it’s time for you and me to take the time to know how much God loves us. When we understand the God has a love for us, you can love yourself–and have more than enough love, to reach out to others in love.

I’ll be learning with Him what it means to love in my life–and how to love myself as His child.

I pray you take this message because this is for you too. Love God. Love yourself. For you are the only you in the world. God made you special and needs you to know that as well so you can conquer, and achieve all He has dreamed for you and me.

May He be with you, in this season and every season.

Have a wonderful week!

Loving Who He made,



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“There are no BIG Moments in life, just small defining ones…” a friend of mine stated as we contemplated the year.

I was taken a back at first. If anything, wouldn’t I look forward to a year full of clandestine instances, and moments that are BIG?

Whatever your dream is, most of us have a scene in our mind we go to that shows us radiantly basking in the glory of “THE BIG MOMENT” taking place.

A time where everything falls into place. A time where your hard work is recognized. A place where all your sacrifice, pain, and suffering will be rewarded. A time when everything comes to a head and makes sense.

A time that nothing can compare to.

A moment in time that will change the trajectory of your life–forever.

It depends on what you define as a “BIG MOMENT”.

What we define as BIG MOMENT is usually tied with the recognition, applause, and lifting of ourselves from others.

Whether it be being noticed by a movie producers, and becoming an instant box office sensation.

Having your articles picked up, and published by the top people in the industry.

Finally receiving that one loan for your business that would take you to a mom and pop shop to a competitive billionaire.

Being chosen out of a crowd and finally...finally being recognized for your all hard work, talents, and gifts.

A desire for that BIG MOMENT may be for many reasons. Most of these moments are self centered and speak from the fallen, hurt place of our human heart. I have come to realize from my own life that it is from a place of wounded-ness or ignorance.

Wounded-ness–The need to be acknowledged due to seasons of rejection, failure, and loneliness.

Ignorance- Simply not realizing who you are, and Who God made you to be.

When we succumb to either we come to a place of unholy longing and dissatisfaction with the season and life God has designed uniquely for us.

“Restore to me the joy of your salvation, and make me willing to obey you.”–Psalm 51:12, NLT

It seems like we are always desperately trying to earn validation from others of how great we really are.

Our eyes have been concealed to believe the wrong thing.

Your BIG MOMENT is not a moment of recognition from other people. Your BIG MOMENT is not even a dream come true.

In reality, we ALL need to realize that the BIG MOMENT has already happened.

In Colossians, Paul, an apsotle of Christ speaks of this BIG MOMENT.

21 You were his enemies, separated from him by your evil thoughts and actions. 22 Yet now he has reconciled you to himself through the death of Christ in his physical body. As a result, he has brought you into his own presence, and you are holy and blameless as you stand before him without a single fault.” (Colossians 1:21-22).

“You were dead because of your sins and because your sinful nature was not yet cut away. Then God made you alive with Christ, for he forgave all our sins. 14 He canceled the record of the charges against us and took it away by nailing it to the cross. 15 In this way, he disarmed the spiritual rulers and authorities. He shamed them publicly by his victory over them on the cross” (Colossians 2:13-14).

Once you and I made a decision to accept Jesus as our personal Lord and Savior, once we believed the gospel, the good news that God saved our souls from everlasting damnation, separation from life itself; a miracle took place.

You and I are now considered blameless and adopted into The Family of God.

We are now children of God.

This decision is your BIG MOMENT–it is the very moment that changed the trajectory of your life–forever.

The moment you and I were saved was the BIG MOMENT!

We have received knowledge and wisdom beyond our hearts capability. We have now been translated from darkness into light.

No more enemies to God. Neither are we separated from Him.

I’m no longer under the control of darkness.


And fear,

And lies of my unworthiness

Is no more.

Now, I have The Hope. Jesus. Not only hope for a better tomorrow but hope for new life to come.
I now have revelation. Truth bearing in my very soul.

You know, I hated everyone. Myself included. But now I have The Love of God burning inside my heart. My heart of stone has now been made soft in His Hands.

I love. Him and others fiercely. Though the fire of that love is tested frequently, He loves me and the knowledge of this helps me return everyday to this blessed assurance.

I am a daughter of the King. I know that now. I can walk in faith knowing the truth of this royalty.

Dear friends, your BIG MOMENT happened the day you gave your life to Christ.
This event radically changed the trajectory of your life.
Forever. You will never be the same again. You are now apart of a family of sons and daughters, royalty, free, and full of life–spreading the Good News of A Savior Who Frees captives bound to sin, lust, arrogance, pride and fear into a new existence. Who loves the sinner back to repentance. Who washes away their sin with His own Blood–who is this God we serve? How could we forget the complete glory of THAT MOMENT. When guilt and shame can no longer stand in the presence of a Merciful Savior and Mighty God…

The best part…

That if we continue to stand in this truth of our risen King, you will understand this secret:

“Christ lives in you. This gives you assurance of sharing his glory” (Colossians 1:27).
Again, nothing, no book deal, business offer, or the fulfillment of any other desire will ever compare to it.

So, “don’t let anyone capture you with empty philosophies and high-sounding nonsense that come from human thinking and from the spiritual powers of this world, rather than from Christ. 9 For in Christ lives all the fullness of God in a human body. 10 So you also are complete through your union with Christ, who is the head over every ruler and authority” (Colossians 2:8-10).

You are fulfilled in Jesus. No need for the accolades and shine from the world. You shine anyway.
Even as I say this, many may turn to roll their eyes. Or scoff saying:



What a miraculous event...and yet I’m still walking through the toughest time of my life.

I’m still at this dead end job…

I’ve been faithful to God and I still have not begun to live my dreams….


I’m saved. But it sure doesn’t feel it.

This life we were born in has now become a battlefield that we must conquer everyday.

And you and I can do that. If we stand faithful, our lives shine bright against the darkness and spread The Kingdom of The God. And though these times seem to last forever, they do not define you. You are still created for a purpose. (Continue to stand tall, and trust in God.)

People may not know who you are, but remember God does.

However, even in the struggle–

The day we were born,

The very first day of school (no matter the age)

Becoming a mother or father,

The first time you fall in love…for real.

The day your loved one dies.

All of these smaller moments are important. All of them are beautiful testaments of life and gifts, or opportunities for us to grow. However, without salvation-the wonder of birth, love, new beginnings, and yes, even death–lose it’s significance.

The BIG MOMENT that can not be compared to anything else is the day you enter the family of God.

We have become so selfish, so preoccupied with the things the rest of the world loves and takes pride in; we forget the wonder, the grandeur, the glory of being chosen, set apart for the purposes of The Kingdom of God. To serve, and honor The One who loves us and shed His Blood for us.

The truth is we have lost the joy we once had when we first got saved.

May our prayer be in this new year: “Restore to me the joy of your salvation, and make me willing to obey you.” Psalm 51:12


Forgive us for forgetting our worth. How we’re more than a BIG MOMENT to you and that our lives are valuable with or without recognition of the world. I pray our hearts desire change to what You desire. I pray our hearts would be sensitive, warmed, transformed into the image of Christ.

That we would remember the truth–that we have been reconciled to you because of Jesus. That His Spirit now lives inside us and we are made new in Him. I pray we would refuse to believe the lies of the satan and instead stand in the truth: that our lives were paid with a price, Jesus Christ Blood and we are saved. Let us never settle for the common things of the world to attain success. Instead may we use what you have given us to give you glory. 

I pray our love grows more every day and we would be satisfied in Your salvation, and that we would have joy in The Lord for your favor and mercy toward us.     

In Your Name I pray,


     Prayer of salvation:

Dear Jesus,

I believe that you died in my place on the cross, and have risen again so I can now have a new life in you. I have sinned against you–I ask you to forgive me, wash me clean. I turn away from my old life.

I ask you to help me remain satisfied in you. All the way though this journey of faith, no matter what. Thank you Lord for everything.

In Jesus Name I pray, amen.

If it was your first time praying this, congratulations! YOUR BIG MOMENT is here! Jesus says in Luke 15:10 that “there is joy in the presence of God’s angels when even one sinner repents.”

That’s right. They rejoice over your heart being turned toward God! What an amazing thing! I want you to contact me if this was your first time praying this or you have rededicated your life to God. Email me at the link here:  Contact  and I will personally pray for you as well as answer any questions that you may have. I encourage you to find a church that is teaching the Word of God in a way that you can understand. Then, pray God leads you to Christian friends who will help you walk out this faith journey.

You can start here. Here you can find the friendship and encouragement you need to walk by faith.

God bless you all, and Happy New Year! May this New Year be full of joy, refining and great gold!

Commit to God this year and He will certainly commit to you.

Let it be our goal to “press toward the mark for the prize of the high calling of God in Christ Jesus” (Philippians 3:14).  I’m praying that your faith fails not, and when your faith is strong, you go and encourage others.

I pray that He helps you through this ministry stay faithful to Him in every season.

I look forward to sharing this new season in 2018, together,


*All scripture taken from New Living Translation

Pregnant With Promises

Many are waiting, full of expectation, waiting for the Promise of God to come.

Many have been waiting for years.

So was Mary.


And Elizabeth.

And yet, all of their stories, though spoken and recorded centuries ago stand the test of time and speak a language of faith we all are able to hear, understand…and I pray…live by.

Mary was a virgin.

Living in Israel.

She was engaged to a carpenter, Joseph.

Until one day, an angel from The Lord God Himself came to her and said:

Do not be afraid, Mary, for you have found favor with God. 31 And behold, you will conceive in your womb and bring forth a Son, and shall call His name Jesus” (Luke 1:30-31).

Zacharias, the husband of Elizabeth, was performing his duties as a priest in the temple when an angel of God appeared and said:

“Fear not, Zacharias: for they prayer us heard; and the wife Elisabeth shall bear thee a son” (Luke 1:13).

Elizabeth was a woman of old age.

Barren. Since she was young. Then, one day she heard the news. That her womb would hold a son. And she would give birth to a child named John. John was going to be the person, the prophet ” ‘to turn the hearts of the fathers to the children,’and the disobedient to the wisdom of the just, to make ready a people prepared for the Lord” (Luke 1:17). He would be the person to prepare people for the Savior of the world.

She went to visit her relative Elizabeth, for an angel of The Lord had revealed to her that Elizabeth, who used to be barren was now holding a son–a promise of God in her womb.

Zacharias mouth was shut because he doubted the promise of God coming forth out of the angel’s mouth.

Elizabeth had waited for God to grant her desire and He did.
And Mary was unexpectedly blessed but she was being watched for her whole life to determine her faithfulness to the Lord.
God favored her above all women to conceive, nurture, hold and birth the son of God….
He chose the humble of heart to bear a promise.
He chose the supposedly barren where there seemed to be no hope.
All to prove that He is God, and that with Him nothing is impossible. (Luke 1:37).

Their subsequent actions determined their faith in God (Luke 37-56).

So, what should I do after receiving a Promise from God?

“For with God nothing will be impossible.”–Luke 1:37

The first act of faith is saying YES

Without knowing exactly the repercussions for her yes or the sacrifices she would make for this yes….
She just said yes.
The next thing she did was to go. She went to someone who had a promise of God about ready to birth that she could see and expect with them, and pray for, and help that her faith would be developed everyday just like the precious promise of God.

Their subsequent actions determine their faith in God’s ability in their lives (Luke 1:37-56).

And she stayed in this prophetic environment where the future God has declared was honored—until the manifestation of her promise was seen (Luke 1:56).

Your faith in God and His Promises to you is directly linked to the actions you take.

The promise of God, and its ability to be born, is connected with your ability to stay in faith.

As you pray God’s promises, stay faithful to what He says to you about your destiny, God is developing it. Preparing it. Getting it ready just for you.
But when you speak doubt-filled words, words of unbelief, scoff, laugh or joke around sarcastically even about the promises of God–you can abort the beautiful gift God had in store for you.
Zacharias prayed for his child, John, before he came to be. With those same lips he prayed for his son, he used it to doubt.
What’s wrong with asking questions? Shouldn’t I be able to ask God questions? 

The amazing thing about God is–yes. You can.
Both of their accounts, are parallel, told one after the other for a reason.
One is what to do.
And what not to do.
In both of these accounts, Mary and Zacharias ask HOW to the angel delivering the good news.
But there are two different WAYS they asked.
Zacharias asked HOW in this context:

How will I know this is true?
How is it possible for an old man like me and an old woman such as my wife to have sex and conceive?

Mary asked HOW in this context:

I believe with what you say, but how will I physically be able to have a child, since I am a virgin?

You see the difference?
Mary was confused about the steps needed in order for the Promise.
Zacharias was a lack of faith.

God is so merciful. In both instances.
The answer for his doubt was: “I will close your mouth so you will not affect the promise of God from happening”

“20 But behold, you will be mute and not able to speak until the day these things take place, because you did not believe my words which will be fulfilled in their own time” (Luke 1:20).

The answer to her questions:
Don’t worry, nothing with God is impossible…and the angel gave her the “how.”

“35 And the angel answered and said to her, “The Holy Spirit will come upon you, and the power of the Highest will overshadow you; therefore, also, that Holy One who is to be born will be called the Son of God” (Luke 1:35).

Which one are you?

Are you Mary?

Are you Elizabeth?

Or are you Zacharias?

Zacharias mouth had to be closed in order to keep God’s Promise’s protected.
His unbelief may have aborted the Promise of God.

If you are like Zacharias…repent. Ask God to forgive you. He will help you find the faith to believe in His Promises again, for real this time.

God loves you. He is always looking for ways to help you and redeem you. Even if you find it difficult to believe His Promise for you, He will help you understand, press on, hold onto and eventually give birth to the promise you have been waiting for.

God does this by always pairing us up with someone who is also pregnant with a similar promise. This helps us stay in faith and stand in expectation for our own Promise from Him to come to pass.

Mary and Elizabeth partnered with one another and shared each other’s testimony, and praised God together.
Uniting in faith. Encouraged in faith. Transformed in faith.
Enlivened by faith in God and His Power,
His Mercy and His Kindness.

In the end, my dear friends,

The Promises of God are yes and amen.
God chooses the humble of heart to birth His promises in. Believing God’s Promises helps us give birth to it.
The sound of a promise fulfilled is shouts of joy, gladness and rejoicing. Amen.

For Zacharias: “Immediately his mouth was opened and his tongue loosed, and he spoke, praising God” (Luke 1:64).

For Mary: “41 And it happened, when Elizabeth heard the greeting of Mary, that the babe leaped in her womb; and Elizabeth was filled with the Holy Spirit. 42 Then she spoke out with a loud voice and said, “Blessed are you among women, and blessed is the fruit of your womb! 43 But why is this granted to me, that the mother of my Lord should come to me? 44 For indeed, as soon as the voice of your greeting sounded in my ears, the babe leaped in my womb for joy. 45 Blessed is she who believed, for there will be a fulfillment of those things which were told her from the Lord” (Luke 1:41-45).

And Elizabeth: “57 Now Elizabeth’s full time came for her to be delivered, and she brought forth a son. 58 When her neighbors and relatives heard how the Lord had shown great mercy to her, they rejoiced with her” (Luke 1:57-58).
For the mercy God has shown you, others will rejoice with you.
Others will see The Lord’s faithfulness.  and they will praise God for answering your prayer.

You will praise God for His Mercy toward you.

You will praise Him wholeheartedly for His Faithfulness and for bringing His Promise to birth.

God promises joy and gladness with His joy and gladness-Jesus.


Thousands of years later, I am overwhelmed with so much joy! Not only because Mary chose to not only say yes to God in the beginning-but keep saying yes to God every.single. day.

Regardless of the stain on her reputation and the ridicule she must of have endured for the rest of her life.

Mary birthed Emmanuel. God with us. And now we can have Him in our hearts forever.

Many of you have waited for this Promise of God to come to pass. You’ve waited for the years of depression, shame, sin to be healed. 

He is here.  God sent His Son in human flesh so you and I can witness the birth of a miracle.  Jesus and your brand new life.  The Promise came so that you will have the promise of a brand new life.

Jesus is the open door for you to have a brand new life.

When you accept Jesus as your Savior and Lord, believing in Him as The Ruler of All things, including your life; you will have the opportunity to experience the peace and favor the angels sang about when He was born (Luke 2:14).

And The Joy!

The Joy of life after death. The Joy that Hope will win in the end.

The Joy of the truth: God loves you–forever!

Jesus is the reason for the season. So let’s celebrate Him as The Promise we all have waited for. Let us trust Him in all the steps we take. As we enter into this Christmas and the new year.


Thank you Father for the Promise you have given us. New life, a rebirth, and a new beginning with Jesus Christ, Your Son, Our Savior and King. We love Him and we love You.

If you want this Promise God has given you today, or if you want to ask Jesus into your heart today. Pray this from your heart:


I ask you to forgive me. I turn away from all my sins, my past, and my shame. I accept you Jesus Christ as my Lord and Savior. Jesus come into my heart, make me brand new. I want you to help me live my life for Your Glory. Thank you for dying on the cross for me, for rising again from the dead so I can have new life in you.  I love you God. Thank you Jesus. In Your Name, I pray, amen.

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Friends, Merry Christmas!!!!!!!!!

I pray you be filled with His Love and Joy today.

In love with His Promises,



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Release Your Burdens to The Lord

I wanted share a devotional with you today. It is “an extra insight” piece written by Our Daily Bread Ministries for October 6th 2017.

And it says:
“During the Last Supper, Peter couldn’t imagine he would deny Jesus once—let alone three times (John 13:37–38). But then the unthinkable happened (Matt. 26:69–75). Later, however, Jesus gave Peter three opportunities to express love to the One who so mercifully forgave him (John 21:15–18).
In that love and forgiveness Peter found a way forward. We too can move forward from the sins of our past through the love and forgiveness of Christ.”

Pray this with me:

“Dear Lord, I’m so thankful that through You we can be free of the burdens of the past—the mistakes, the pain, the sins—that hang so heavy. We don’t need to carry around regret or shame. We can leave them with You.” –Our Daily Bread Ministries

Let God make you new by giving up your burdens.

There’s a lot going on in this world. Just keep your eyes focused on Him and keep moving forward. He has a plan for your life. Not your mistakes or failures. But you.

I love you all,


* Feel free to read the rest of the devotional here:

“If I Knew Then..” Our Daily Bread Ministries

Give it to God

Originally written November 15th 2017

“Give it to God”

“Give all your worries and cares to God, for He cares about you.”–1 Peter 5:7

There was a little girl, walking outside of Speedway, with a sugar drink in a gigantic cup. She wobbled, as her mouth gripped the straw and slurped the cool, sweet drink. Her white outfit shined under the bright beams of my moms busted van. I smiled as I watched her desperately grip the drink, the drink that was almost as big as her entire torso. She walked and walked into the cool crisp night towards the filling stations.

Next to her was a man, most likely her father, who was silently walking beside her, reached out to her coax and encourage her to hand him the cup, for he knew it was too big for her. Too heavy for her.

Too much for her to handle.

But she stubbornly kept walking, with her face bent toward the ground, focusing, intently on carrying that gigantic cup.

After a few attempts, her father, allowed her to carry it, all the way back to the car.

Sometimes I feel we are just like that little girl.

We carry our lives in limbo, clinging to its very breath, hoping nothing will fall…worrying that something will crash. We will crash. We keep our head down, concentrating too hard, fixing our eyes on the wrong thing…..only to look up one day and find that our lives have passed us by.

And just like the loving Father that He is, God walks along side us, reaching out to us, encouraging us, coaxing us to give it to Him.

I’ll take it.

I’ll handle it.

I’ll take care of it.

But no.

We, just like this little girl, slurp greedily, clinging steadfastly on the very thing that will destroy us. We change our gait, and walk slowly and surely. And while our arms get sore, fingers smart, and thumbs swell, you say: “I”m almost there. I can make it on my own. And besides, I just can’t just give my life away.”

You start thinking: “I will never see it again. I will lose all control. And…I will never be happy then.”

When you’re actually saying: “I can’t trust any other person with my life. I can’t hand over everything to someone I can’t see. I can’t handle the uncertainty. I can”t handle the possibility of failure.”

Selfishly, willfully, pridefully, we continue to take these steps.

And yet all the while, God, Our Father, walks alongside us, watching our every move. Making sure we don’t slip, or crash, or fall. He walks quietly, carefully alongside us, waiting for us to give it up, and give it all for Him to carry.

He made us.

He knows our limits.

He knows what we can or can not handle.

God can take care of us.

Only if we allow Him.

God’s constant presence in our lives speaks volumes of truth.

We can hand everything over to Him because He is an all-powerful, and all seeing God. God knows the end from the beginning. He can prepare us for the future and save us from the memory of our mistakes.

We can trust Him because He is good, and takes care of the birds, how much more us?

We can cast our burdens on Him, because God fills the WHOLE UNIVERSE. God is BIGGER and STRONGER than we could ever imagine. He can handle and solve any problem, any challenge, any life that is given to Him.

God can not fail, because everything God does is a masterpiece. Look at the universe. Perfection! God also has your best interest at heart, and would never allow evil to conquer you, His prized creation. Everything God created is good, complete, and a masterpiece…including you.

If you are in a place where you feel it is too late for God to fix your problems, that you have lived too long ‘like this’ for God to fix it–you’re wrong. God loves you. God can fix any problem or life in an instant.

So, instead of allowing you to carry your burdens, frayed life and mind, God created a better plan:


You hand over everything to Him, asking Him to help you, asking Him to take your burdens, and take care of you, and He will help you.

If you feel that if you give it away you will lose your independence, your autonomy, your freedom, your acknowledgement of self pride and strength…’s not true.

He did not go through the hardships of life here on earth for nothing. He did not suffer persecution for nothing. He did get nailed to a cross, and hang there for three hours in vain.

He did not go to hell for nothing.


He went to hell and back for who? You.


That’s right.


You were that important to God that He sent a replacement to prevent you from ever going through shame, pain, and death.

And you were not created to bear the burdens you carry. You were not created to pretend you have it all together. You were not created to just survive! You were created and ransomed to live a life of freedom, grace, and truth.

You were created to live. So give it all to Him.

And live.

He alone can create something new out of your surrender.

God can.

So, why don’t you ask Him?

Ask Him to take it.

Try Him.

Because He will never fail you.

Thanks for reading.

Until next time friends,

Hand it over to him. Trust. He won’t ever let you down.

I love you,


He Looks To See What You Will Do

I wrote this awhile back when I was still writing on.

It was not an easy place for my heart to be in.

But He led me here again so I,
And you,

Can learn from this too.

We were just talking about this. My close friend and I, she told me about the lingering hurts of cutting words from a stranger into her life. She kept walking on, after some encouragement. And we realized that these words can be detremential..but at the end of the day are fleeting. Having no merit or weight about who we really are and what we have done.

I was feeling some sorts about my life.

And I scrolled through some work just to see what I could do.

Get inspired.

Encouraged again.

Looking at or even at least thinking about story ideas makes me feel better.

Then God led someplace else.

He wanted me to see how far I have come.

I heistated but I began to read.

He is always right.

And here I am sharing what I wrote.

And here I am again,

Receiving encouragement from what I never trusted as good work.

The truth is: I didn’t believe there were be words worth of value in here, the old document with words written from the earth of my heart in the past.

But it is. He led me back to this to show me how far I have come.

Here are some of this things God was speaking to me about during this time.

Here are words God is speaking to me now.

And I want you to read it.

And be touched and inspired by the words He spoke to me during this season of growth and learning.

Two years ago.

July 16th, 2015

A Time for Everything: He Looks to See What You Will Do

My self-esteem, I thought it was pretty high…but in particular with this week, I have noticed there were many things that were sent my way (from the enemy I am sure) that have challenged my heart’s ideas about who I am. My worthiness, my confidence and etc.

And I know many can relate to this. Maybe even little things, low blows from parents, siblings, even close friends. Snuffs from people you thought you were cool with. Even benign things such as misunderstandings, rushed conversations…failed social encounters. Which you know really don’t mean anything compared to the overall scheme of life, but those things just seem to bug you. You consider your thoughts and actions.

Your words are lost…..scriptures escape your mind…you lack focus…you keep rehearsing in your mind: “Maybe I could have done this…or this….or I could have said this…maybe I should have let her know, or did I do something wrong? Why are they mad at me? Was I to blame….Am I the problem? I am the problem….” We give room for the enemy to amplify the situation.

You get sad, forlorn. You stop your usual functions over something as little as a rude, or harsh word. A cold shoulder. Unfair treatment, an offence.

But good Lord. Aren’t I glad the Lord prepared me for this week!

God told me before this week began:

1. Don’t beat yourself up. it is a completely human thing to do, but it is also a very prideful thing to do. Why? You keep focusing on yourself. He cares about you, loves you, and still thinks the best of you. You are His child you know?

2. If people offend you, forgive them. God has a good way of getting people back for all the wrong they have caused you…trust me….believe me.

3. Protect and guard your heart with all diligence. For out of it come the issues of life. [paraphrased, Proverbs 4:25] Not only what comes into you. But what comes out of you. Speak with great clarity, but also remember to keep sound wisdom and discretion, which are the fruit of the Holy Spirit coming from your lips. Never speak without checking your spirit or thinking over it with God.

Protect your heart from being engaged in the issues, and cares of this world. You must understand. Disagreements, arguments with people, slander, hurtful words thrown your way, and mediating on that is still a care of this world. Why? Because most harmful arguments happen in the flesh. Gosh, I just learned this today. You can not be engaged in the affairs of this life, because you go into battle, only to please the one who has called you to be a soldier. Jesus Christ our Lord. And I know you would want Him to return with you musing about a dumb argument you have had with your sister upteen billion times! I think not! SO, please, be careful to not take these words to your heart. Pray to God, ask God to guard your heart and mind with peace [Philippians 4:7].

4. It is okay, it is more than okay, to be yourself. Why? Because you are free.

How? God bought you with a heavy price for you to be.

And what price was that?

The blood of His only Son–Yeshua. But we all know Him as, Jesus, the Son of the Living God.

I know it may seem hard to consider or imagine. But just think of it this way:

A. This life is waaay too short for you to be carried away in banal arguments.

B. We are all accountable to God for what we do, every little thing. Now, that can be a little scary to some. But it shouldn’t. If you are walking with God, there is nothing to fear! God is near and will help you. You may not like it, flesh wise, but it will be for your good!

C. In everything, at least this helps me, I want Jesus to be proud of the way I acted and my response to the circumstances of life.

Get stronger, and work on this. Because when we do, God will work it for our good. Our character will be stronger, and therefore, can support the greater power/anointing God will give us.

I love you all and may God bless you.

Remember/Meditate on Philippians 4:7. Ask God to rule your heart and mind with peace. And ask Him for strength and even courage to do the right thing before Him always.

Same Heart

There are just some people who don’t know how to love you.

And that’s okay.

Not everyone can love God and love people with a heart of intention like you can.

Not everyone can say that they love you to the moon back.

But God can.

So before you get angry or bitter of what others can not give you…

Just remember that God gave you the ability to love like He loves.

He gave you the ability, capacity, and the strength to give of yourself just like He did for us all.

You see–

Before the beginning of time came,

As He sealed Himself as a sacrifice for your life,

He declared:

That no one can love you like He can.

No one will love like He can.

No one has the same Heart as His.

Except if you have been made new in your soul, and your spirit remain in Him,

By accepting The Son Who gave His heart and life for thee.

Let our prayer be:

Not everyone can love like You can, God.

But I want to.

Help me to love and have a heart like you. Help me to continue loving and caring for others so that they may experience Your Love through me.

Not everyone can love you can.

But that’s okay.

Jesus does.

He will give you a new heart to love one another.

And He will give you the best of His heart for all eternity.

Have a good week, holding on to this truth:
He can love better than we all can.
However, God can still give us the ability to love beyond our understanding. All so others can know Who He is.

And you can enjoy Him.

Thanks for reading.

May God bless your heart so you can dream big love like our very own Lord.

I love you all in Christ,



I was under pressure.

I couldn’t breathe. I couldn’t live. Couldn’t stand.

I couldn’t sing.

I tried to become a good little girl.

But was rewarded for good grades and obedience to things I could not agree with or understand.

My questions were met with incredulous and disrespectful yells.

I was silenced.

For my inquisitiveness was too much for Nigerian parents to handle.

It didn’t match their expectation for who they thought I was

Or wanted me to be.

Stuck I was.

Between what I loved.

Dreamed of

And was expected of me.

They tried. Out of love.

But in effort to succeed they instead suffocated the treasure God had placed within me.

I was lost

In the wilderness

For sometime

Because of this.



Assaulted with suggestions.

Scared of saying no to what I knew was wrong.

Guilt ed for trying to keep myself pure.

But I forgot that I was worthy.

Therefore, stained

I began to turn on myself.

Mind corrupted.

Stories were my passion but it became complicated when my own heart could not fathom,

That my story which I had spent daydreams creating,

was now maligned.

Pride began to creep in. And innocence lost caused bitterness to settle in.

I used the very education my parents took pride in and the gifts God intended to bless me

On others as a weapon of my own inferiority.

Sinking deeper into a depression that never was mine.

Gone to the oblivion of a world that would see me as a little black girl.


With no vital worth or imagination.

In agony.

I succumbed to the depression.

And the grief.

An early mourning of the voice I could not seek


To young to give up.

Feeling too old to work it out,

I lost my energy.


I became ashamed.

No more proud of my accomplishments.

Because it did not seem to matter

For I was not free.

To enjoy the beauty of what God’s gift was doing for me.




I was mortified by my sin. Disgusted.

I hated myself.

So I settled for the lie.

That God would be ever angry with my addictions.

The doubt that clouded my thinking

Pervading almost every moment of my being.

How could He forgive me?

He would be forever punishing me with the shame that would not leave me.

He would never forgive me and therefore give me what I desired…to be a writer, creator, author, dreamer, actor, performer…for Him.

He became a religious being that I could lord over people with.

I could confess the scriptures.

Sing the songs.

And quote the Bible back and forth.

However, I was not convinced that He could love me enough out of my sin.

I became,


Punishing others for not seeing the brilliance in me.

For not seeing the gifts in me.

For not recognizing my cries for help in the endless seas of depression.

In reality,

I was punishing myself.

For I was confused.

Who was I?

Who I thought I was

Was gone

In the seas of depression.

Gone deeper into the oblivion.

Almost dead.

Desperate. In need of a Savior.

That was years ago.


He has taken the filthy,



The anxious

Little girl.

With nail pierced hands he has not objectified her, silenced her, abused her, taken advantaged, or forced himself on her to be what He wants her to be. He has excused her, quieted her, comforted her
Remained her rock.


Her confidant.

Her friend.

A mystery


But God saved me once again from a life of regret and a life of bondage to sin.

God saved me.

He recreated and healed me.

He restored my soul.

He made me new.

He forgave me.

He forgave me

For what I once was.

For who I had become.

He forgave me

For giving up.

For moving on.

For letting go of


He paid for me

To love

And live life freely.

Even when I didn’t want it.

When I didn’t want



He forgave me. He forgave me. He forgave me.

You don’t how much I needed that.

Forgiveness. For one,

Forgetting The One Who could set me free.

And two, not allowing the soul He created in me to live.

And He brought my heart to it’s knees.


Awakening me for His Love for me again.

Breaking chains off,

That were there for years.

I now received the Creator’s gracious gift to the world.

The Son that He prepared since the day I was born.


He told me, just a couple of sunsets ago that He does not condemn me.

I am free.

I am at peace.


My testimony is still being written.

I have fallen, a few times.

But even in the stumbles

And tumbles,

I find myself in,

He has never left me.

He ‘s stood there. Right there. My friend. Next to my heart. And waited for me.

To get back up.

Aiding me.

Through it all,

He never left me.

Even when I wanted to give up on Him.

Even when I wanted Him to give up on me.

Even when I wanted to give up on myself.

He stuck close to me. Like a true friend.

He never left me.


You set me free.


Your testimony is the most powerful thing that can never be undone.

Share it.

Because just like Your Savior’s Blood….

It never loses it’s power.

I love you God. Thank you for giving your Son, so I can be free, and remaining my God even in my sin.

For Your Forgiveness, redemption and Unfailing Love.

Praise Jesus.


I love you all.

God bless,


Prisoner of Hope

“Return to the stronghold, O prisoners who have the hope; This very day I am declaring that I will restore double to you.” –Zechariah 9:11-12





What is the hope?

The Hope of humanity is Jesus Christ, the Son of God.

All of humanity looks for a solution, a person, to wash them clean of their sins.

But because of the suffering, crucifixion and death of His Son,

We would be forever atoned for our sins.

To be remembered no more.

The glorious Resurrection of Jesus not only sealed the blessed plan of redemption but gave us the sure promise of everlasting life with The Lord.

And one day we shall come together as His own and be taken up to be with Him.

Forevermore (1 Corinthians 15:52).

That is THE HOPE. The Hope that we long wait for. It is the final redemption of our bodies to The Lord and the anchor our souls hold to as we wait to be caught up in the air to be with Him.

Now, this hope I not only for some future day.

The Hope is for every breathing moment for the life you live on this earth.

The anchor of hope when everything seems to be a lost cause.

When life seems pointless,

And you have no supposed reason to live,

When you think The Lord has forgotten you,

And you are not worthy of His Love.

When you think these constant battle with disease,

A constant battle with life’s failures. Disappointment after disappointment.

Stealing your heart, your courage, your tenacity of life,

Stealing your joy.

When time starts to close in on you and there is nothing left to do.

When all seems lost and you think there is no hope for you.

There is hope. It is The Hope that restores all humanity and keeps the world. It is Jesus. He is The Solution. He is The Answer.

Know this. He loves you. He really does. And He gave up His Only Son to prove this truth. It was written before you were ever even born.

God loves you. He has a special place for you in His Heart and He has The Hope for you. All you have to do is accept His Promise of salvation through Jesus. Accepting Jesus is the step you take so you can become a Prisoner of Hope.

Why should The Lord give us double for our trouble and deliver us from our fears? And how can I be sure?

It explains right in the verse before it.

“As for you also, because of the blood of My covenant with you, I have set your prisoners free from the waterless pit.” (Zechariah 9:11).

God promises to deliver us, not because of our good deeds, or because we deserve it but because God in His Mercy and Love for us wanted to save us from our sins and keep us from a life without The Hope of the world, Jesus (John 3:16-17).

Humanity will stay in it’s depraved and failing ways without a sacrifice to make us in right standing with The Lord. There is no remission, or forgiveness of sins without a shedding of blood. (Hebrews 9:22)

There is no forgiveness of sins without a blood sacrifice, a shedding of blood. 

And that sacrifice who shed His blood for humanity was Jesus.  He is The One and Only Who gave up His life so you and I can live free-guiltless without any sin before God the Father. And God promises, once you make a decision to believe Jesus, He makes you into a new creation and connects you into His Family.

The covenant, sealed with the Blood of His Son, who is alive now, is your secure Hope in the days to come. You can trust His sacrifice. It continues to cleanses you, carry you and keep you safe. The Blood constantly reminds the world that He is alive. Because He lives, and your hope is in Him, Who will remain forever, you will too.

This Hope promises to never leave you alone.

He even promises to save you from every dry, purposeless situation. He promises to give you double blessings, honor, and abundant Life (John 10:10) for all the hardships you have faced.

Jesus says in Matthew 5:10:

“Blessed are those who have been persecuted for the sake of righteousness, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.”

Hope had to die in order for us to live.

That is what makes you a Prisoner of Hope.

It can’t be taken and you can’t earn it by yourself

However, you must believe in the One who died and rose again with power to set you free.

Return to your strong foundation, receive The Hope of all humanity. Accept Jesus into your life and become a Prisoner of Hope so that he can make you an Ambassador of Hope the whole world can see, come to know Him and believe.

Jesus, help me to remain a Prisoner of Hope that I may inherit all things with you. I am sorry Father, I repent of all my sins and come into agreement with your will for my life. Thank you Father for hearing my prayer. Thank you because of the covenant you have with me because of Jesus I can stand blameless and clean before your Presence and your promise of giving me double for my trouble and delivering me out of the prison of despair still stands today. Father, thank you being with me. Thank you for helping me stand strong as Prisoner of Hope in this world. God, I do love you. Thank you for loving me.

In the name of Jesus, The Hope of All.


Read Hebrews 9 and get more insight into what it all means for you to have a covenant with God and the strength of that covenant and relationship with God.

I love you all.

I leave you with this:

What does it mean to you to be a Prisoner of Hope?

Comment below!

A Prisoner of The One Who Gives Us Life,


Come Home.

I want to tell you a story. It goes like this:

“A man had two sons. The younger son told his father,

‘I want my share of your estate now before you die.’ So his father agreed to divide his wealth between his sons.

“A few days later this younger son packed all his belongings and moved to a distant land, and there he wasted all his money in wild living. About the time his money ran out, a great famine swept over the land, and he began to starve.

He persuaded a local farmer to hire him, and the man sent him into his fields to feed the pigs. The young man became so hungry that even the pods he was feeding the pigs looked good to him.

But no one gave him anything.

“When he finally came to his senses, he said to himself, ‘At home even the hired servants have food enough to spare, and here I am dying of hunger! I will go home to my father and say, “Father, I have sinned against both heaven and you, and I am no longer worthy of being called your son. Please take me on as a hired servant.”’

So he returned home to his father.

And while he was still a long way off, his father saw him coming. Filled with love and compassion, he ran to his son, embraced him, and kissed him. His son said to him, “Father, I have sinned against both heaven and you, and I am no longer worthy of being called your son.”

But his father said to the servants, ‘Quick! Bring the finest robe in the house and put it on him. Get a ring for his finger and sandals for his feet. And kill the calf we have been fattening. We must celebrate with a feast, for this son of mine was dead and has now returned to life. He was lost, but now he is found.’ So the party began.

Meanwhile, the older son was in the fields working. When he returned home, he heard music and dancing in the house, and he asked one of the servants what was going on. ‘Your brother is back,’ he was told, ‘and your father has killed the fattened calf. We are celebrating because of his safe return.’

The older brother was angry and wouldn’t go in.

His father came out and begged him, but he replied, ‘All these years I’ve slaved for you and never once refused to do a single thing you told me to. And in all that time you never gave me even one young goat for a feast with my friends. Yet when this son of yours comes back after squandering your money on prostitutes, you celebrate by killing the fattened calf’

“His father said to him, ‘Look, dear son, you have always stayed by me, and everything I have is yours. We had to celebrate this happy day. For your brother was dead and has come back to life! He was lost, but now he is found!’”

–Luke 15:11-32, NLT

Regardless of who you are,

Where you have been,

What you have done

Or who you have done it with,

God loves you

And asks you:

“To Come Home, daughter

Come Home son,

Come Home to Me

I will come and clean you up.

I will fill you up.

I come to make you whole

Cut the ties

Break every chain,

Rescue you from darkness

And keep you safe.

Return home to me

You are dirty,

But I will make you clean.

I will wash away your sins.


Come Home to Me, my son,

Come Home to Me my daughter

Come Home to Me

Back to Me

Back to Me.

I will take away your sins.

I will make you whole again.

I will make you holy.

I will restore you.

I will revive you.

I will make you new again.

Come Home to Me children,

For I make all things new.”

God said this word and God’s word is true.

God has you on His Mind and more and store for you.

God loves you.

Forget about the things that kept you from coming home in the past.

Just like the son in the story Jesus speaks about. God is better than this pigsty your living in.

God even promises to clean you up.

Won’t you let Him?

God, the Father of all

Asks you,

Calls you home.

Back to His Heart.

He can’t force you.

He will give you the respect to make the right decision.

You have not been alone.

God has caused you to come down to this moment.

He has had you on His Mind.


“Just come Home to Me, God says

Your Lord

Your God

And Your Father.”

Pray this prayer with me so that you can come home:

God, I ask you to forgive me for all my sins. I ask you to receive me as your son or daughter. I ask you to help me live the life you have called for me to live. I ask you to help me embrace all of who You created me to be.

Jesus, come into my heart and change me now. I believe you are the very first son of God and you came to die for my sins. Thank you for that. I can now become God’s son/daughter because You loved me enough to come down and give Your LIFE. Thank you Jesus Christ for rising again so I can live with God forever. God, thank you for loving me, thank you for saving me, and for giving up Your only son to die on the cross for my sins.

Fill me up with your love Father, so I can have a heart for you and live for you and You alone. Thank you God for hearing my prayer and answering my prayer. Thank you God, that I am a new creation in Christ Jesus. Old things are passed away, look, all things have become new! Your perfect will is being done in my life.

Thank you God!

In Jesus Name I pray, amen.


I am excited to see what God has in store for you!

I come against everything that would cause you to become anything short of who God called you to be.

I speak blessings over you. Keep walking. Keep walking with God. Keep Jesus in the center of your life.

He is with you.

God bless you.

God loves you.

And I love you too,


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